so wow, umm I haven't made an entry in forever and we graduate tomorrow, woot! Wow, that was some old school EQ shit coming out... mmk so yeah tomorrrow is also Sylvia and mine(our, w/e) 9 month anniversary, and after this summer, we'll move out to our own apartment, hopefully we can stay together through college and stuff, but we're going to transfer somewhere I dunno, she wants to go hella up North, but I don't know how we are going to afford something like that. But w/e we'll work it out, she wants to go to University of Deleware, or University of Penn. but I don't know how that stuff is gonna work out. She however made a sacrifice to stay here for a bit, so I can get some college credit going so I can get into a decent place, much more on her level, or at least some place near her.

SO um.. my clothes are dry and I really want to go see Sylvia, so I'll keep in touch with everyone over the summer, and especially through college

peace out cool kids

Currently Playing Hot Fuss By Killers see related

hmm so yeah its been a long long time, till touch down brings me down... or something like that... I'm not sure but yeah...so anyway, but umm yeah just forget that first part

so yeah... how's school for everyone? yeah this year, it pretty much rocks.. I love... umm everyone of my classes, and everything is going pretty well, my GPA went up at semester, and umm... I'm planning on going to HCC for 2 years, then transferring to UT... Austin? San Antonio? not sure exactly... anywhere I can get a good History Degree so.. umm I'm just rambling... see this is why I stopped writing... all I do is ramble.. and people don't understand my entries... and then I'm just like "yeah..." I started rambling again... ok..

so Sadie... its this weekend... Sylvia and I are going to make shirts we got some wifebeaters already, we need some iron on letters or something and then we can iron on cool/funny phrases, and dance and stuff, and eat at applebees or something before

umm yeah.. its distracting at sylvia's house... I'm basically done... k bye

Tonight... I've been thinking about a lot of things... like.. voting... I really meant to make an entry right after I voted, but I got so caught up in the election night coverage... and we can see that my vote accomplished nothing... but at least I voted, and I voted for who I wanted to... that was all I really wanted to say about voting...

I was thinking about school.. kind of... I still have to do my European Scrapbook thing... so after this I promise I'll get started

I was thinking about Sylvia... and us... and I was just thinking about how long we've been going out, and for everyone else... a few months means nothing... but for someone that knows me... they know that anything over a week or so is something important to me... and I was just thinking generally about how we hang out... and we talk... about stuff... and we can just sit around and watch TV... or go drive in my car... or sit and watch a movie at home on friday nights instead of spending my money.... or go to Astroworld... and get frustrated at Fright Fest... and how... ultimately... it didn't really matter what we did... we both enjoyed it... and I love the way she'll always fix me Ramen Noodles... for the 50th time.. and how she'll always make the for me when I run over to her house for 5 minutes on my lunch break... and how we help each other out with homework... mostly just Stat and Physics though... but yeah... everything helps... and I couldn't help but realize that this is... exactly what I wanted for Senior year... and how things finally seem to be falling into place... at least for some measureable amount of time... but I digress... sometimes sappy things are better left unsaid, and sometimes they are better published... I shall leave it to you to decide...

I was also thinking about video games... and how hard it is to keep up with them... each one of them is $50, and for someone that works 2 days a week, and has homework most of the rest of the time.. that money has to be so wisely spent... and I was thinking about Everquest... and how, for the most part, I didn't have to worry about most things chaning in that world... until I started ignoring it... and everyone else moved on, and how... for a time I pretty much played alone... only living in the game for myself... and I realized how stupid it was... the thing that made the game so great wasn't the AI, or the cool monsters, or the new items to get... it was the people... I missed having the nice friendly people, who even though they pissed you off sometimes... you loved them, because you grew up in the game with them... and you knew them, and you knew that they wouldn't betray you... until at some point, everyone moved on... and I was thinking about how my dad started playing, just to play with me... and I quit... without ever really playing with him... partially because I was very impatient with him... and partially because he only played by himself... and it scares me sometimes how much, at the core, we're the same... because I see him sometimes and I never want to be him... but at the core... I am him...

that... kind of went off on a tangent...

(insert akward silence)

And I was thinking about how I missed everyone... and how I should hang out with you guys... everyone... because I miss all of you... and I miss going out to dinner, then all of us going to a movie... and I miss just hanging out at Marble Slab, or Kayla's house... or some random place we end up at...

I just need more... time.

EDIT* its hard to enjoy anything when you realize that everything... is just man trying to immortalize himself in some way so that he can escape death... just thought I'd share the profoundness... k bye